Besides realizing I'm not a very good blogger, I've recently realized I'm quick to jump to conclusions. Never had I realized this before, but I now see how absolutely terrible this can be. I know I don't always do it, however, I do it nonetheless. The worst part is, jumping to conclusions too rapidly can lead to resentment... yes, personal situation.
After my "balls to the wall" rant, I set out to do it. I did it. The next day in fact. And while success momentarily came from the situation and I was extremely excited about it, just as quick and easy as it came it slipped away. At that point, I jumped on the conclusion train and took it to woe-is-me. But why? Why do we create these false realities in our heads?
I have no idea. What I do know, nearly a month later, is the full story behind my initial let down; a story nowhere near the one I fabricated in my head. A story that explains everything. A story that is true. A story that brings back hope. Sometimes, that's all it takes. I had completely let go of something that was real to me for the first time in a long time, for something that was fake and created by my brain. I know now, exactly how dumb I was being, how I stretched some parts to try and make sense of something. I should have approached the situation, but I couldn't bring myself to do so because I was so far gone on the conclusion train.
I can't explain the relief or joy I felt when the facts came my way. I have taken this as a slap in the face though, as a wake up call to not be so quick to think the worst. Also, I've realized exactly how important it is to turn to God in times of struggle and confusion. I don't know what's in store for my life, but God does. So, why don't I turn to Him more often? The age old question.
The Conclusion Train
